Thursday, July 29, 2010

Dichotomy

Everything- BuckCherry

Buried way beneath the sheets
I think she's having a meltdown
Finding it hard to fall asleep
She won't let anyone help her


The look on her face, a waste of time
She won't let go, gonna roll the dice
Losing her grace, starts to cry
I feel her pain when I look in her


I wanna be
I want everything, I want everything


Somewhere she is on the streets
Trying to make things better
Praying to God and breathing deep
Gotta break this long obsession


The look on her face, a waste of time
She won't let go, gonna roll the dice
Losing her grace, starts to cry
I feel her pain when I look in her


I wanna be
I want everything, I want everything
I wanna be
I want everything, I want everything, yeah


If I had everything would I still want to be alive
Or wanna be high?
If I had everything would I still want to be alive
Or want to be high?


Now and then she talks to me
And sometimes writes me letters
The look on her face, a waste of time
She won't let go, gonna roll the dice
Losing her grace, starts to cry
I feel her pain when I look in her


Your eyes, never close your eyes
And open up your mind and then baby
You can have everything, everything
Your eyes, never close your eyes
And open up your mind and then baby
You can have everything

Beautiful Beautiful- Francesca Battistelli

Don’t know how it is You looked at me
And saw the person that I could be
Awakening my heart
Breaking through the dark
Suddenly Your grace

Like sunlight burning at midnight
Making my life something so
Beautiful, beautiful
Mercy reaching to save me
All that I need
You are so
Beautiful, beautiful

Now there’s a joy inside I can’t contain
But even perfect days can end in rain
And though it’s pouring down
I see You through the clouds
Shining on my face

Like sunlight burning at midnight
Making my life something so
Beautiful, beautiful
Mercy reaching to save me
All that I need
You are so
Beautiful, beautiful


I have come undone
But I have just begun
Changing by Your grace

Like sunlight burning at midnight
Making my life something so
Beautiful, beautiful
Mercy reaching to save me
All that I need
You are so
Beautiful, beautiful

These are 2 very different songs that I currently have playing on repeat. I think this dichotomy really shows where my head is at right now. I am kind of all over the place. But not scattered in a bad way….just in a way that means I need to make some choices. Choice is always I good thing. I just hope I choose right.

I am sure that I have thoroughly confused my IRL (in real life) friends, but oh well.

Disclaimer: These are obviously song lyrics that I in no way wrote. I credit the artists…duh

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Stream of Randomness

I have started using Windows Live Writer to blog and I LOVE IT!! It definitely easy to use and it makes formatting so much easier than using Blogger.

I just moved. I didn’t tell ya’ll that. Yep I moved…again. I usually move about every 2 years but it had only been a year since my last move this time. Oh well, I love my new place. I am getting to be quite the moving expert.

My first summer off as a teacher has been a rousing success. I am a HUGE fan of any job that wants to pay me to have 2 months off. I look forward to many more summers off. But along the lines of summer is that I wish we could take some time off when it wasn’t so dang hot…maybe like have October off and June off….yeah I like that idea.

I have been without cable TV for over a week, and I am kind of getting use to not having it. Kind of…..

I am leaving for a trip in a couple of days and I have already packed my suitcase mentally but not physically…is that weird?

Teaching abroad has become a recent idea for me. I have begun skimming the surface about this notion. I would LOVE to go somewhere that I could practice my Spanish. (No worries Pick, I am just toying with the idea)

I saw Twilight Saga: Eclipse and it was awesome. Definitely my favorite of the Twilight movies.

I am beginning to come to terms with my social networking addiction. I am realizing that I spend entirely too much time on Facebook, Twitter, and Youtube. It’s a problem for real y’all.

I guess that’s it for now.

Ok I lied, I just thought of something else. If there is anything that anyone out there is in need of prayer about please let me know. I am trying to become a better prayer warrior so I would be thrilled to lift the blogosphere up in prayer. Even if it is just to pray for someone’s unspoken prayer request. Just leave me a comment.

Monday, July 12, 2010

I Don’t Know What My Problem Is

This is the longest blogging slump I have ever been in. I don’t know what the problem is. I have TONS of amazing things going on in my life that I want to share. I have TONS of “issues” I would love to discuss. But still nothing.

I want to be brave like Amy Beth and talk about singleness. I want to be brave like Casey and talk about depression. I want to be wickedly witty like Bossy. I want to elequently express my beliefs like Angie.

But alas, I am none of those women. I am just me. So you fine readers reader, are stuck with me. I am not sure exactly what that “me” means right now. I’m working on it.