Dichotomy

Everything- BuckCherry Buried way beneath the sheets I think she's having a meltdown Finding it hard to fall asleep She won't let anyone help her The look on her face, a waste of time She won't let go, gonna roll the dice Losing her grace, starts to cry I feel her pain when I look in her I wanna be I want everything, I want everything Somewhere she is on the streets Trying to make things better Praying to God and breathing deep Gotta break this long obsession The look on her face, a waste of time She won't let go, gonna roll the dice Losing her grace, starts to cry I feel her pain when I look in her I wanna be I want everything, I want everything I wanna be I want everything, I want everything, yeah If I had everything would I still want to be alive Or wanna be high? If I had everything would I still want to be alive Or want to be high? Now and then she talks to me And sometimes writes me letters The look on her face, a waste of time She won't let go, gonna roll the dice Losing her grace, starts to cry I feel her pain when I look in her Your eyes, never close your eyes And open up your mind and then baby You can have everything, everything Your eyes, never close your eyes And open up your mind and then baby You can have everything

Beautiful Beautiful- Francesca Battistelli Don’t know how it is You looked at me And saw the person that I could be Awakening my heart Breaking through the dark Suddenly Your grace Like sunlight burning at midnight Making my life something so Beautiful, beautiful Mercy reaching to save me All that I need You are so Beautiful, beautiful Now there’s a joy inside I can’t contain But even perfect days can end in rain And though it’s pouring down I see You through the clouds Shining on my face Like sunlight burning at midnight Making my life something so Beautiful, beautiful Mercy reaching to save me All that I need You are so Beautiful, beautiful I have come undone But I have just begun Changing by Your grace Like sunlight burning at midnight Making my life something so Beautiful, beautiful Mercy reaching to save me All that I need You are so Beautiful, beautiful

These are 2 very different songs that I currently have playing on repeat. I think this dichotomy really shows where my head is at right now. I am kind of all over the place. But not scattered in a bad way….just in a way that means I need to make some choices. Choice is always I good thing. I just hope I choose right.

I am sure that I have thoroughly confused my IRL (in real life) friends, but oh well.

Disclaimer: These are obviously song lyrics that I in no way wrote. I credit the artists…duh