I Have Posted These Before But I Needed A Reminder For Myself

"Lord I'm tired

So tired from walking

And Lord I'm so alone

And Lord the dark

Is creeping in

Creeping up

To swallow me

I think I'll stop

Rest here a while

And didn't You see me cry'n?

And didn't You hear me call Your name?

Wasn't it You I gave my heart to?

I wish You'd remember

Where you sat it down

And this is all that I can say right now

And this is all that I can give

I didn't notice You were standing here

I didn't know that

That was You holding me

I didn't notice You were cry'n too

I didn't know that

That was You washing my feet"

- All That I Can Say, David Crowder Band

Thursday Thirteen- Literature Edition

One of my New Year's Resolutions is to read 50 books this year, so this is an update on the progress I have made thus far.

Books I have read this month:

1. Nine Stories- JD Salinger
2. Gracefully Insane- Alex Beam
3. A Separate Peace- John Knowles
4. Howl- Allen Ginsberg
5. Franny and Zooey

Books Next In Line:

1. The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath
2. The Last Tycoon- F. Scott Fitzgerald
3. Girl, Interrupted- Susanna Kaysen
4. The Snows Of Kilimanjaro- Ernest Hemingway
5. Up At The Villa- W. Somerset Maugham
6. Manhattan Transfer- John Dos Passos
7. Of Human Bondage- W. Somerset Maugham
8. The Power Of Privilege- Joseph A. Soares

Wordless Wednesday- Ruggles Cheesecake, aka- Heaven On A Plate

Its Another Not Me Monday

Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week.

I did not procrastinate my bible study homework until this last day and have to do it at the the last possible second.

I did not just shut my bathroom and bedroom door rather than clean it up for my company that was coming over.

I did not ruin my third pecan pie and I most certainly did not eat it even though it was all runny and soupy.

I did not almost rip off my big toenail trying to vacuum in reverse. That is silly, what kind of woman does that. Certainly Not Me!

I did not take a picture of the fountain in Town Center with all the bubbles in it and laugh hysterically about it...nope not me because that would be juvenile.

And finally I did not misspell VACUUM in this Not Me post! And I did not misspell MISSPELL either!

I Am Claiming This Verse

1 Corinthians 15:10

"But by the grace of God I am what I am"

Just Cause I Felt Like It

Me and Bubba

Time To Get Serious....Again

I never thought I would say this, but the first 45 lbs. were easy. I have most definitely hit a plateau and it is time for me to get serious in my weight loss again. I have been maintaining the loss of the original 45 I lost, but I still have at least another 45 to go. My motivation has gone away, it is hard to be on a "diet" for your whole life. But if I want to lose the rest of my weight then I need to get back on my "diet" and hit the pavement for some exercise. My plan is to start keeping my food diary, exercising at least 3 days a week, doing my pilates 5 days a week, no fast food, cutting back on my Dr. Pepper intake, and trying to keep a positive self image. These are my goals at least, hopefully I will jump start some new weight loss.

Before:

Easter 2008

After:

Christmas 2008

Life Updates

- My mom and I started a bible study last night. I am super excited about it. It is Beth Moore's study of Esther and I have never done a Beth Moore study before so I can't wait to see what God is going to teach me through it.

- I got my hair cut today and of course it looks really cute. I hate spending a hundred bucks on my hair but I am going to do it while I can. I'm sure when I have kids my hundred dollar haircuts will go out the window!

- The Unit and I are trying to plan a girls weekend but finances are playing a part and that sucks....oh well...we will see.



That's all for now!

All You Ever Wanted To Know

This is all that you didn't know you ever wanted to know about me!

Things you’ve already done: bold
Things you want to do: italicize
Things you haven’t done and don’t want to: leave in plain font

1. Started your own blog.
2. Slept under the stars.
3. Played in a band.
4. Visited Hawaii.
5. Watched a meteor shower.
6. Given more than you can afford to charity.
7. Been to Disneyland/world.
8. Climbed a mountain.
9. Held a praying mantis.
10. Sang a solo.
11. Bungee jumped.
12. Visited Paris.
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea.
14. Taught yourself an art from scratch.
15. Adopted a child.
16. Had food poisoning.
17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty.
18. Grown your own vegetables.
19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France.
20. Slept on an overnight train.
21. Had a pillow fight.
22. Hitch hiked.
23. Taken a sick day when you’re not (physically) ill.
24. Built a snow fort.
25. Held a lamb.
26. Gone skinny dipping. -- Sorry Pick! :)
27. Run a marathon.
28. Ridden a gondola in Venice.
29. Seen a total eclipse.
30. Watched a sunrise or sunset.
31. Hit a home run.
32. Been on a cruise.
33. Seen Niagara Falls in person.
34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors.
35. Seen an Amish community.
36. Taught yourself a new language.
37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied.
38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person.
39. Gone rock climbing.
40. Seen Michelangelo’s David in person.
41. Sung Karaoke.
42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt.
43. Bought a stranger a meal in a restaurant.
44. Visited Africa.
45. Walked on a beach by moonlight.
46. Been transported in an ambulance.
47. Had your portrait painted.
48. Gone deep sea fishing.
49. Seen the Sistine chapel in person.
50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris.
51. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling.
52. Kissed in the rain.
53. Played in the mud.
54. Gone to a drive-in theatre.
55. Been in a movie.
56. Visited the Great Wall of China.
57. Started a business.
58. Taken a martial arts class.
59. Visited Russia.
60. Served at a soup kitchen.
61. Sold Girl Scout cookies.
62. Gone whale watching.
63. Gotten flowers for no reason.
64. Donated blood.
65. Gone sky diving.
66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp.
67. Bounced a check. -- Again, sorry Pick!
68. Flown in a helicopter.
69. Saved a favorite childhood toy.
70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial.
71. Eaten Caviar.
72. Pieced a quilt.
73. Stood in Times Square.
74. Toured the Everglades.
75. Been fired from a job.
76. Seen the Changing of the Guard in London.
77. Broken a bone.
78. Been on a speeding motorcycle.
79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person.
80. Published a book.
81. Visited the Vatican.
82. Bought a brand new car.
83. Walked in Jerusalem.
84. Had your picture in the newspaper.
85. Read the entire Bible.
86. Visited the White House.
87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating.
88. Had chickenpox.
89. Saved someone’s life.
90. Sat on a jury.
91. Met someone famous.
92. Joined a book club.
93. Lost a loved one.
94. Had a baby.
95. Seen the Alamo in person.
96. Swum in the Great Salt Lake.
97. Been involved in a law suit.
98. Owned a cell phone.
99. Been stung by a bee.

Just Tryin' To Lighten The Mood In Here

I can has cheezburger

A Little Piece Of Me

The fullness of Your grace is here with me

The richness of Your beauty’s all I see

The brightness of Your glory has arrived

In Your presence God, I’m completely satisfied

For You I sing I dance

Rejoice in this divine romance

Lift my heart and my hands

To show my love, to show my love

A deep deep flood, an Ocean flows from You

Of deep deep love, yeah it’s filling up the room

Your innocent blood, has washed my guilty life

In Your presence God I’m completely satisfied

Phil Wickham- Divine Romance

Wow, to be completely satisfied. That is something that I really struggle with, but I know that my satisfaction lies wholly in the the grace of God and His undying love for me. The Lord has saved me, and I am so thankful my life will be used for His glory. I need to seek the satisfaction that can only be felt from His presence and rejoice in it.

Lightning breaks around Your throne

Streams of Glory bursting from your robe

You are the God in Heaven

Voices sing Your endless praise

All who see you bow for countless days You are the God in heaven

Holy, Holy, Holy, is the Lord, God almighty

Worthy Worthy, Worthy is the Lamb

The only one who was and is and will come

Phil Wickham- Holy Holy Holy

And Lord, here this as my prayer.

Oh who am I that Your merciful eyes should fall on me

A sinner a fool, who doesn’t deserve You

And what am I that you’d offer Your life and die for me

What can I do, I’m nothing without You, I’m nothing without You

I’m nothing without You my love, my saving love

So I fall into You, I’m desperate and weak

Crying out from my heart, take all of me

How can it be that the heart of my God would long for me

For all that You do, Jesus I love You, I’ll Always Love You

Jesus I love You with all of my heart

Maker of sun and moon and stars

I throw myself into Your arms, into Your arms

Phil Wickham- Fall Into You

Another Baby Needs You

Dear Heavenly Father, We ask for your healing on baby Harper and for you to grant her family peace in their struggle. In your name, Amen

Oh The Pictures

All of the sudden I have become a picture-aholic on my blog. Honestly, I think I'm trying to avoid any real emotions or thoughts. Posting pictures is easy. Putting raw emotions out there is not so easy. But stick with me y'all, deal with the pictures for a while longer. Substance will return soon enough... I hope. :)

I will leave y'all with this little piece of news: Jesse McCartney is coming to Houston for a Valentines Day concert. I can't help it...I lurve him. His music is my guilty pleasure that I will deny listening to if anyone ever asks. ;-)

Edited to add: After a text conversation with my Unit (best friend, Laura), it looks like she may be my "Valentine's Date" to the concert! She is such a good bestie!

A Little Pink For A Miracle Baby

A grieving family asked that those in the blogosphere to wear pink today in honor of their miracle daughter, Magdalena. Today this family is celebrating the life of Magdalena, so stop by and let this family know that you will say a prayer for them.

Wordless Wednesday- Do my teeth look whiter? Did I waste my money on teeth bleach?

Before: After:

You Know What Sucks....

• Having to clean out your recently deceased loved one's apartment.
• Finding letters from your recently deceased grandmother (in her handwriting) in your recently deceased grandfather's apartment.
• Losing 2 of your grandparents in a 3 month period.

But you know what doesn't suck....

• Knowing Mawmaw was waiting in Heaven to welcome Pops to the party.
• Knowing Mimi was probably pushing Mawmaw out of the way to be the first one to hug Pops.
• Knowing that I will see them all one day when I get my VIP pass to the party in Heaven.

Oh No Not Me!

Yes it is that time again, y'all.

I did not just take down my Christmas decorations yesterday.

I did not wear heels and a new Ralph Lauren sweater to the Boat Show just in case, you know... ;-)

The best part of the boat show was not the pet accessory lady.

I did not take down my Christmas lights off my patio and just leave them outside because I was too cold to put them in a box.

I did not post an ad on Craigslist for the first time and then get really nervous about some crazy person buying my TV armoire.

And I did not write the post on Sunday and schedule it to publish on Monday :-)

Nope not me I didn't do any of those things.

If You Need A Good Cry or Some Perspective

Then you must go here.

Angie and her video about her daughter is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen.

Her faith and trust in God's plan is astounding and inspiring.

Go check out Bring the Rain.

Life Lesson

When exiting the car wash at a gas station, it is not ok to take a hundred years to leave the stall. Yes I know you want your car to dry but that does not mean the rest of us should have to wait.



Come on go to a "real" carwash if a dry job is that important! There is a line of people that want their $5 wash.



Face it your car will never be dry after leaving one of those things!

Blackberry, aka Crackberry

I have reserved judgment on our president-elect. But I will admit that I did not vote for Obama. However my feelings towards our nation's new president may be changing.

Today I read on CNN.com that Presidet-elect Obama is fighting with the lawyers and secret service about giving up his Blackberry during his term(s) as president. Apparently Mr. Obama is nursing a pretty serious Crackberry habit and doesn't think he should have to give that up.

I have to respect the man that: 1) he admits his deep affection for his Blackberry and 2) wants to hold onto just a piece of his former "normal" life. I, too, am addicted to my Crackberry so I can sympathize with the president.

I say that President-elect Obama should keep fighting for his inalienable right to feed his Crackberry addiction.

The Obama Blackberry should be welcome in the White House just like everything else!

Long live Blackberry addictions!
Sent from my BlackBerry® smartphone with SprintSpeed

Wordless Wednesday- Pawpaw and Maddie Mae

Not Me!

I have too much serious/sad/heavy/heart-breaking stuff going on to do a Not Me Monday!

But you should check out MckMama's because it is super funny this week.

I Am Weary

Matthew 11:25-30

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.

I Feel Like I Got Punched In The Gut

Bring It On 2009

This is the start of my list of goals for the new year and things I want to do or accomplish:

• Be honest with myself
• Get a job
• Get involved in a church
• Be more self sufficient
• Read 50 books
• Read the bible cover to cover (in order)
• Love more
• Run/Exercise regularly
• Take a trip somewhere I have never been
• Do a Project 365- Year in Pictures

I hope to add to this list as the year progresses.

I am excited about what this new year can bring!