How many is too many?

So I was watching Jon & Kate plus 8 and I was thinking to myself that I hope that I don't ever have that many kids. Then that show called Kids By The Dozen came on. I don't want to pass judgement but some of those families with 13 or 14 kids seem so strange. Its like having a ton of kids makes you weird. I know that the families on those Kids By The Dozen shows aren't representative of all extra large families but I think they need to have a "normal" extra large family on there just to show the other side of the issue.

I have been thinking a lot lately about how many kids is the right number to have. I am from a family of 4 (a mom, a dad, and 2 kids) and I think that is perfect. But I think that I am going to go by the rule that I am not going to have any more kids than I can give everything to. I don't want to have kids that are going to have to sacrifice just because there is a lot kids in the family. If I know that it won't be feasible to give more than 1 child everything they need and/or want then I will not have anymore.

I want to be able to give everything to my kids. I want them to be able to have all the things they want, to be able to do whatever activities they want, and for them to know what it is like to have nice things. I want to be able to take them on vacations and have them see the world. I want them to be able to go to college without worrying about loans or having to work. I want to be able to leave them something when I'm gone.

I want them to have it all.

How my mind works

I have talked a lot recently about my insomnia issues. Well last night while I was laying in bed trying to fall asleep, my thoughts were going in circles and taking some weird turns. So then I started making a list of all the random facts I remember from college. Here is a short version of my list:

• Plato's Allegory of the cave
• Hobbes' Theory of Man is that life is "short, brutish, and nasty"
• A Frenchman wrote "Democracy in America"
• Adam Smith and the Invisible Hand
• Plessey vs. Ferguson established the doctrine of "separate but equal"
• Brown vs. The Board of Education called for desegregation
• Brown vs. The Board of Education 2 called for desegregation with "quick and deliberate speed"

One night I going to write down the thought patterns that I go through. It is seriously so random and I never end up anywhere close to where it all starts. I think that means I am really smart or crazy.

My money is on crazy...

KSBJ Sharathon

I just got home from volunteering in the phone room at the local christian radio station. Every year KSBJ has a sharathon to raise money to continue their ministries. I volunteered to answer the phones from 2am to 6am. (I know crazy shift but see post below about my sleeping issues.)

Even at those hours we had people calling in to donate their money to keep the station alive. People were giving all they had to give without even questioning it. It was truly amazing to see the numbers climbing on the total charts and knowing the awesome things God was doing in peoples hearts and knowing that God's work is going to continue to reach millions.

God is good!

http://www.ksbj.org/

Rain Rain Go Away

It was suppose to rain yesterday, but no... it decided to rain today. You want to know why it is raining today......

Because I have to drive 50 miles to school! Yesterday when I didn't have anywhere I had to go, it didn't rain. But of course, it is storming like crazy out there today.

I HATE DRIVING IN THE RAIN!!!!

I am a big baby when it comes to bad weather. I don't want to leave my house when it rains. And for that I blame my mother. :) She use to pick us up early from school if it was bad weather. So I am conditioned to not want to go out in the rain.

(You know I am just kidding Pick, its not really your fault!!)

Topic to discuss amongst yourselves...

Behaviorism:

For or against?

I am unsure how I feel about it. While the benefits of positive rewards cannot be denied, but some argue that the benefits are not long lasting? Technically positive supportive praise falls under the behaviorism umbrella, and I am 100% support of praising both children and adults.

So I guess I well put my one foot in the behaviorism circle but I am leaving that other foot out there so I can change my mind in the right situation.

School makes me tired....

But not tired enough to sleep.

My sleeping has never been normal, but I am starting to feel that it is out of my control. I have tried all the techniques that I have heard of. Relaxation, breathing techniques, medicine, counting, drinking tea, aromatherapy, hot bath, stretching, no TV, white noise... anyway you get the point.

Nothing helps! I take sleeping pills (over-the-counter) every single night. There isn't a night that I can remember when I didn't take something. Friday night through Saturday I was awake. Being awake for days is not okay!

This isn't normal, right?

Lyrics to "All I can say"- David Crowder Band

Lord I'm Tired, So Tired From Walking
And Lord I'm So Alone And Lord The Dark, Is Creeping In Creeping Up To Swallow Me
I Think I'll Stop Rest Here A While
This is All that I Can Say Right Now
And This All That I Can Give
This is All that I Can Say Right Now
And This All That I Can Give
Thats My Every Thing
And Didn't You See Me Cry'n
And Didn't You Hear Me Call Your Name
Wasn't It You I Gave My Heart To I Wish You'd Remember Where You Sat It Down
This is All that I Can Say Right Now
I Know It's Not Much But
And This All That I Can Give
And Thats My Everything
This is All that I Can Say Right Now
I Know It's Not Much But
And This All That I Can Give Yea Thats My Everything
I Didn't Notice You Were Standing Here
I Didn't Know That, That Was You Holding Me
I Didn't Notice You Were Cry'n Too
I Didn't Know That,
That Was You Washing My Feet

I have made a decision tonight.

I am going to buy a sewing machine and I am going to learn how to sew.

I want to do this and really I need to do this.

I am want to be that mother who makes cute tops and smock dresses for her daughter And gosh darn it, my kids are going to always have the best costumes for Halloween and school programs.

I am going to do it and I am going to be AWESOME at it.

Are you kidding me?!

I go to leave for school today but when I opened my garage this is what I found....


What the heck!!! Someone parked their trailer in front of my driveway. Completely blocking me in my garage. After a fruitless search for the trailer's owner, I was still stuck! So I wasn't able to go to school today which is frustrating because I had a ton of stuff to do.

How can people be so selfish to park and detach their trailer in someone else's driveway!!

I wrote a note and taped it to the trailer politely asking them to move it. I purposely put my apartment number on there thinking they would knock on my door and apologize. But nope, they didn't come by and say anything. I wasn't angry and my note was polite but I guess they were too cowardly to step up and say they were sorry for inconveniencing me and causing me to miss my class tonight.

There is some sort of flying bug that has invaded my house. And it is driving my cats crazy. You know what crazy cats do to their mother... drive her crazy! My cats are acting possessed and I have a bug in my house... this is not a good night.

So Summer school has started. It will be tough but so far so good.

My dad and brother are going to Oklahoma to work some insurance claims from a wind/hail storm.

I can only think in bursts right now.

Happy Father's Day!

So I decided to delete the post I had posted earlier. Even though I had said that those were not my words and I had linked where it came from, I did not want it to appear that I was stealing some one else's words, thoughts, and feelings.

Anyone who knows me, knows that I have weird food issues, and that I am usually in favor of plain bland food or strange combinations.

Well tonight I discovered a new combo that was awesome. I was hungry but not hungry enough to cook a meal. So I looked in my pantry and saw a bag of baked Cheetos (100 cal pack) and a 100 cal pack of sour cream and onion chips. Then the genius thought came..... "I bet Cheetos and S & O Chips would be awesome together". Yes folks that's right, I combined the 2 into a fantastically strange bite.

And boy was I pleased with myself. It was quite yummy!

Edit: I am using this food post to say that I was right all along. Yep, TOMATOES ARE OF THE DEVIL! Most of you have mocked my irrational fear of all things tomato related and you rolled your eyes when I made you move the ketchup or pick tomatoes off my plate, but who was right? It was me! Tomatoes are dangerous right now and you can't even get tomatoes at Subway. Seriously people stay away from the scary tomatoes.

I just had a strange but proud thought.

I was in the laundry room starting a new load (its always good to have clean clothes on the first day of school) and then my cat, Chloe, came in to use her facilities (aka- litter box). As I am checking my jean pockets I heard Chloe start peeing. And I thought to myself, "aww that's my big girl going potty",and then I thought that was kind of a disturbing thought.

But after the struggles I have been through with her and her chronic urinary tract infections, and her not eating for months, the act of going pee for such a long time and loud enough that I could hear it is cause for celebration.

I am a proud mama and I know that I am doing the right things to keep her healthy. And I know you are thinking, why the hell am I blogging about this. But like I said, I have been struggling to get her on track and healthy and I am so happy that she is, 1) peeing and 2) peeing in her litter box!

Summer school starts on Monday, and I am really glad! After this summer, I am pretty much done with my class work.

In the Fall I will have 2 (easy) classes and an internship at Early Childhood Intervention- Keep Pace and then......

GRADUATION!!!

I saw the Sex and The City movie today. I thought it was really good but the gratuitous sex scenes were completely unnecessary. I could have done without the nakedness. I hate it when there are sex scenes thrown in just because you have actors willing to do it. I know the movie is called SEX and The City but there is something to be said about leaving things to the imagination.

But overall it was worth the money. Plus popcorn and an Icee is always fun!

So I don't really have anything to say. But I logged on here and I feel like I should say something. I have been housesitting/babysitting and my schedule feels all screwy. I am having fun, but it is just weird kind of being in 2 places. I have to spend time at my house so my cats don't die or revolt against me but I still have to be at the other place too. It is just strange. It has been hard settling into a routine.

I guess that it is it. This is quite possibly the lamest post I have ever written.

Sorry.

I am never want to go to the mall on a Saturday again. And I definitely don't want to go to Holister ever again. All the sudden I feel like I am either too old or not old enough to fit in with the Saturday mall crowds and the shoppers at Holister.

Proper age ranges and groups to shop on Saturdays:

• Teenagers
• Mothers with little kids (also not allowed to shop in Holister)
• Mothers of Teenagers

Wrong age to shop on Saturdays

• Twenty-something Singles
• Twenty-something Marrieds without children